Monday, June 13, 2005

Try and Try agian

Well here I am, back agian. The last 7 days have been great. I woke up last monday morning and relized something about how God wants me to be. My searching soul needs to remember that everyday is an opportunity to try agian. I've wasted so much precious time beating myself up for what I haven't accomplished. I have goals yes, and goals are important. I won't give them up but, and this is key. I don't have to accomplish them in a 6 hour period.

Goal #1 Increase time spent with God through prayer and study. With this being my number one goal I have started here. Oddly enough I found and extra 3 hours of my day I had been wasting. Now I get up at 5:30 in the morning. The kids aren't up till 7:30 sometimes 8. Ah ha! What am I giving up? You ask. No, not sleep. About and hour and half of TV at night.

Now get this, Goal # 2 Get the house in better condition with out loosing time with kids. So after prayer/ study time ( usually 1/2 hr) I have an extra hour and half to clean house and shower. Amazing. So what happens if I fail next week. I just try agian and keep trying till I get it right.

The only sins God won't forgive are those we quit trying to commit. The ones that we say "Oh well, I'm only human God will just have to accept that." Maybe he will ...........Maybe he won't. I personally am not willing to take that chance. So here I am, searching for the person God wants me to be . Everyday I get a little closer. There is so much hope in trying. Every new fresh day offers that chance.


Gods Blessing on you,
Kelli Marie

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

searching souls

So I chose Searching Souls. Thinking at first well yes I truely feel like a searching soul. Not for my souls betterment to Our Lord but for that perfect me who I'm supposed to be. The perfect wife, mom, friend, daughter, self. I really just feel like I'm looking and searching all the time. Somedays I wake up and think ah ha I found you. By the end of the day she has disappered. Blown away by some wind of stress come over me or feeling of failer.
Then I thought so what about those souls searching for a deeper relationship with God. What can I offer them if anything? I guess just the lessons I have learned and continue to learn. So I hope to offer that at times.
We are all searching for something aren't we. Especially in our world today. Our TVs say what they want us to buy to find the miracle cure. The ANSWERS. They haven't got it. Not the real IT.
Well I'll continue to search and maybe you can come with. Maybe we can help eachother.
Christ Blessings,
Kelli