Still searching

It occurs to me today that my life seems to be all about searching. When something is not going the way I would like it to I start looking for a way to improve it. All aspects of my life fall under this scrutiny. I wonder if used correctly this is Gods way of bringing me closer to Him.
I always feel as if I'm short the time and attention He deserves in my life. So I am always searching for a better way to get closer to Him.
Prayer, meditation, simple conversation, acts of love and mercy to my fellow man. Its the sitting down and being quiet part I have trouble with. The ability to just be, to just open my heart and mind to listen to His voice speaking to me. I seem to find Him in the faces of the people around me. Maybe He knows its the best way to reach me.
I am often humbled by Christ' presence in others. Seeing Him in their eyes, hearing Him in their voices, feeling Him in their touch. God is all around us its true. I just look forward to the day when he truly will hold me in His arms.

Living without fear.

This is my new goal. To live with out fear. To offer to God all of my anxiety and trepidations. To find a road in my life designed by God and follow it. I am sure I will hit a few potholes on the way but I will with His help get up, dust off and move forward. I have been blessed with a husband who has always been guiding me closer to God. I have let my personal pride get in the way of following him like I should. No longer. I will walk with my husband into the light of God and the three of us shall make this journey together.

Holy Thursday

We went to Mass this evening for Holy Thursday . Our Lords last supper when he instituted the Eucharist. He reclined at table with his friends. They talked, laughed, told stories. These men were Christs best friends. He spent 3 years of his life with them. Every day all of the ins and outs of everyday life. He of course taught them, educated them on all the things God needed them to know. He was preparing them for what was to come. His death and resurrection. Only for him to come back for 40 more days and help them become the men God truly designed them to be. The leaders of His church.
To have been able to sit at His feet. To listen to the sound of His voice. These are the ideas that send a tingle down my spine and butterflies in my heart.
What can we do now to be worthy of the Kingdom of Heaven? What can our sinful souls do to show Christ how much His sacrifice means to us? We who have been given the greatest gift ever given, the gift of life, eternal life.